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Fri supposingly to go back to HQ for CNY celebration.. but was already informed.. sorry but due to tight deadline... we will conduct meeting before lunch.. after 2 hr break (lunch), resume meeting...

cannot disagreed but this time i really working working very hard since i first started work after graduation.
fully utilised my 8hrs of works - not msn, not blogging, not surfing net but by doing serious work.
Why am i so good or guai suddenly??... becoz of the hot and hard deadlines...

Feb 15...
ya right its 15.. not 14th Valentine Day.. don't think seriously hve the mood to celebrate.. worse case might be staying in ofc rushing reports, powerpoints..

spend the entire morning till 3pm having meetings, discussions with engineers frm the state. Use MSN (ya taught my bosses how to use it) to communicate with some s/w engineers in the state (its was 9pm there where it was 10am in Spore).

had a short briefing which TL aka team leader aka boss informed us of our current progress..

15th Feb - software review..
after 15th Feb - refine documents, requirements (1mth)
spend another 1 mth on s/w design
start coding aka development
do testing, unit testing,
integration testing..

phew.. he finally concluded.. by the end of this year, we will hve the exposure of a full s/w development life cycle.. and also added.. nxt project we can lead our own team.. haha

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The pace is moving so fast now.. that i feel i might hve a problem catching up with the team. my colleagues are all with many years of development experiences, a higher grade (T2 and above) whereas i am just a fresh fresh gal who just grad frm Uni (T1 to be exact).

keep recalling did i seriously seriously make a right decision to take up this position, enter the engineering field where i actually not properly trained in it..or maybe or perhap i really not capable for it...

On the contray, am i such a person who will give up half way, in the mid of everything. Colleagues n bosses treated me so well.. trying not to give me the pressure, 看得起你才给你做 is what pple told me.. haiz and that was boss said when he passed me my confirmation review "you hve done way passed what we expected of you."

Is that a compliment, or seriously asking me to "pls buck up"???.. i really dunno...

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frenz thought i committed sucide on monday when i off my msn, off my mobile.. remained uncontactless.. maybe its a better way to let me hve some peace? and not to think so much...

frenz dun worry i m fine.. seriously

Hanzi jio me out tonight, for dinner and also do some shopping... decided to go as hoping that my hobby will make me happy and not make me think so much so that i can enjoy myself..

however....

i returned home empty handed.. die die wanted to grab a dress but suay suay the colour i wan is OOS.... walked alot of other shops but saw nothing i fancy.. hanzi say.. its normal, the more you want buy thing, the more you returned empty-handed...

or maybe is it my mood for shopping also deproved with the burden, stress i currently experiencing.. haha in this case chew zi will be happy.. i will save alot..

or maybe i am simply saving for shopping at HK. however there might be a possibilty that i may return home empty-handed hor... (but possibility not that high lah)

worse... hanzi banned me from dessert.... all stupid fat fat fault.. told her we going bakerzin again on fri... haiz.. mean fri go vivo no bakerzin..... no dessert, no cakes...

i trying to keep myself happy.. cheer myself up.. be involved in other happiness, very importantly.. keep myself very very very busy.. so that i wun think so much.. hehehe

"Am i happy, sad, tired or simply exhausted?? "
seriously.. i really dunno.. can anyone tell me?

Labels: Career

posted by Ah Jean at 1/30/2008 10:58:00 PM

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What a Monday..

Dunno what happened to me.. but i really broke down for the 1st time, infront of my laptop.. can sense warm tears dashing into my eyes for a moment and i seriously dunno what i'm thinking...

Is it work stress? Frenz Problems started becoz of me??

Recieved an email to submit some wrk before 12 noon today for the upcoming review.. boss is also beside.. colleagues are all busy, rushing, changing, reviewing.. discussions..

developed a bad sore throat since last nite, ate lozenges yet was of no help. drank vit C last nite & in the morning.. but still no effect.

whole body was still aching.. dunno is it becoz of the exercise before or am i really feeling sick..

damn cold in the ofc.. no matter how many sweaters i put on, i was still feeling cold.. hand shivering and feeling numb..

last nite after i left msn, something new happened.. talked to the victim and realised that it was actually a plot to escape from hearing more.. continue msning with others while rushing my works and stuff..

on the intention of letting one another know each other thoughts... i did a damn damn stupid thing which i really regret... really understood the feeling of being betrayed.. back stabbed.. what we called talking behind someone else back? or maybe i was not in the right-headed of mind when i made that decision of copy and paste the chat dialog out to the other party..

----==terrible flash back of the past suddenly emerged into my mind ==---

i tried myself putting in the each other shoes and i really want to slap myself for it.. what am i seriously, honestly thinking?

Maybe its my sickness that induced me to be in a very unsaint state of mind..

okie stop giving urself reasons to cover for ur wrongs..

decided to ignore everyone and maybe just leave me alone for once.. let me grave until i feel better.. no worry i am alive.. turn off my MSN, turn off my mobile..

frenz dun worry, i hve seen a doc.. and medicines have been given.. however to eat a not is still up to me.. i am seriously fine.. need to be quiet for a while.. concentrate on my wrk to produce an efficient output due tml.. ya tml need to come out with GUI prototype..

shit shit.. what am i doing.. blogging some nonsenses...

maybe some dessert will help for a greedy me.. but seriously i not that tempted...maybe at least for now..

going to start wrk le..

posted by Ah Jean at 1/28/2008 07:50:00 PM

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1st Experience.. will it be the Last??

My Current Situation:

Sore Throat
Calf Aching
Arm Aching

Why le... see below...

Was dragged to East Coast Park on Saturday.. meet the Gang.. and as chew zi came late, n basically there nothing i can do.. i can only do this~~~

~~**LEARN HOW TO BLADE**~~

Dunno wat came into me.. but i know the next moment.. i am on the inline skate and nxt moment.. trying very hard to balance myself.

Here i will like to 10x FAT FAT ~~see see i so gd give u credit

coz he the 1 so call to be teaching me.. but most of the time is supporting me as i really hve a huge problem in moving on blade.. haiz..

and the only thing i can do is scream when i feel that i m falling.. clinging on to fat fat arm (should be glad that my nails r not tat long)... and wiping my sweat.

Nevertheless.. i so-call learnt a new skill, a new sport.. which is quite fun.. hehe

But, this might be my last encounter blading coz i almost killed someone, so i dun wan to pull another kind soul down again.. ~~someone complain back-ache~~ haha

Our group photo taken that day.

Went cycling (ya ya, i cant cycle so was on a double bike and my driver was again FAT FAT~~majiam whole day stick to him le.. haiz) after that but honestly i was just sitting on the bike and relaxing.. coz i was damn damn tired.

Honestly i quite like east coast nite view.. a totally different feel frm the day.. relaxing.. relieve me frm the stress frm wrk and the tireness..

Hope to go there one day, sit beside the sea, drinking a cup of coffee at the cafe, reading magazine, listening to music.. enjoying the sea breeze..

~Emm, the FARM seem keen on going back ECP again.. well think my above HOPE can be fulfil soon le.. tis cuming wkend~

and lastly....

cannot forget...

my reward for putting in so much effort..

reward for being sporty...

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Coffee Bean Tiramisu Cake..

oh ya forgot to explain why my current situation is like that.. coz

Sore Throat ~~too much of screaming..
Calf Aching ~~trying hard to balance
Arm Aching ~~tightly clinging on for help.

Labels: The Farm

posted by Ah Jean at 1/27/2008 10:45:00 PM

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Curb my DESSERT crave???

~~Blogging with a tight work schedule..

went Bakerzin last nite with a very unwilling guy.. who keep chanting that he going off and it will be full-hse at Paragon Bakerzin..

nevertheless managed to grab a seat.. and here my dessert for last nite..

He ordered~~~~~ walnut cheesecake..

~~mine is definitely warm chocolate cake.. hehe

recounting how many warm choco cakes i intake over last yr.. tink never hit 10.. so still not that bad right.. heehee.. Hanzi dun scold me lah..

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and finally a very "Unwilling" FAT FAT..

posted by Ah Jean at 1/24/2008 12:13:00 AM

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HK here i cum.... again..

yes yes.. my HongKong trip is finally confirmed..

realised there JetStar 1 for 1 promotion to HK so we decided to change our date..

Departure on 28th Feb ~~Return on 3th Mar 08

As seen, will leave spore at 0640am.. expected to reach hk at 1020am and will return to spore at 1145pm. really fully utilised the 5 days

This also the first time taking budget airline.. totally nut experiences.. hehe

will be going with Jessica and Ap. 3 of us will camp into 1 hotel room.. will be choosing a better hotel as we save quite alot on flight this time as compared to going to agency. And that also mean we have more funds toshop more.. heheh..

Nxt thing to do now is to find a reasonable price hotel, plan the itnerary and last thing save $ to bring on trip

This will be my 2nd trip to HK, went in 2004 wif family.. but never really explored much as was package tour.. so hope this time, will hve a great time there..

intending to go to: The Peak (again), Ocean Park (again), Macau, Shenzhen.... etc etc

Labels: HK

posted by Ah Jean at 1/23/2008 05:42:00 PM

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An after lunch Treat for myself

A treat for myself.. to make me happy..

~~Irresistible Fruit Yogurt Ice-cream~~

posted by Ah Jean at 1/22/2008 01:50:00 PM

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I'm Bored..

难得 can c me be blogging at tis period of time. i am supposed to be very busy -- preparing and rushing for the software review on 15th Feb.
Yes ah, i am busy.. there works to do.. was stuck in the meeting room for 5hrs yesterday (5/8 of a working day hours). but but.. ya i don't hve the mood to do.. completed some part in the morning.. but dunno y just feel bored.
I noe i am tired, was playing the entire weekend.. (actually not really, only went search for tour agency, went K). just cant get to sleep at nite, tired but cant rest.. chat, watched tv till the wee hours and have problem waking up the nxt morning. Today morning was terrible, i overslept on the bus and missed my regular stop and thus missed the bus i need to catch.

What the problem with me? i really dunno. got chance to rest but dun rest.. just trying very hard to keep myself busy.. finding programmes to keep myself entertained.

Ya i noe, work is stressful but i choose this option myself. but i juz not a person who can sit at my desk for 8 hrs just doing wrk. ya, i can finish the job assigned earlier, provided i hve the mood.. and will choose to surf net, chat until i got the MOOD to work.

So when the MOOD cuming?? Too free until think too much, get myself 烦恼. or is it i hve not been shopping tis wk, or resisting my attempt to SHOP due to saving for my HK trip. haiz i dunno.
its only tue, 3 more days to weekend.. the weekend plan has been planned.. going east coast wif the ~~TriGee~~ THE FARM.. but do i really hve the mood to go?

posted by Ah Jean at 1/22/2008 11:16:00 AM

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Do i Look Tired??

This picture was taken last sunday where the GANG met up for AVP2. was shopping at far east which we bought alot of stuff and got the store membership.

Anyway this morning, Hanzi was telling me.. i look TIRED in the picture. Am i really so tired..

i also dunno, maybe is due to the stress at work, trying to cope with the upcoming dateline on 15th Feb.. mind occassionally going into a dead block.. dunno what info to spec for the review, how to implement the system.. haiz.

anyway, weekend is here.. always looking forward to it, although its usually disappear in a flash, before i enjoyed it, its usually Sunday Nite which mean working the nxt day..

Plans tis weekend:

- meeting AP n Lansi to travel agency to find out the costing to HK trip

-meet Hanzi n Chew Zi for KTV...

hope my plans will execute smoothly.. and i can enjoyed myself.. or actually should i just stay at home and sleep since i so tired???

posted by Ah Jean at 1/18/2008 11:53:00 AM

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Guess who is it??

Hey guys.. see this cute cute picture.. any idea who is it?

Guess le tell me.. hahaha

Labels: The Farm

posted by Ah Jean at 1/17/2008 10:45:00 PM

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Year 2008

is 2008 a good year????

For me personally its has been no different, still busy rushing with my ofc work and of coz maintaining my regular hobby + paying of expenses n bills..
But to my close frenz.. there seem to be quite big impact at the start of this yr:

got few frenz undergoing depression state.. some fallen out of luv, some dunno why out of sudden went into depression, mood swing.. etc

then another chunk, got sick.. dunno is it becoz of the weather, or play too much... have been seeing pple falling sick since the beginning of 2008..

Just wanna tell all my frenz.. thanks for being with me till the end of 2007.. although i knew you are all going through some difficult time in the start of 2008.. i can only say i will be there when you need me.. juz give me a call, msg etc.. i will not try to FAN you all.. will give you all time to get over, cool down.. but juz be reminded i am always available..

posted by Ah Jean at 1/16/2008 11:17:00 PM

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Last week was a short working week for me.. only worked from Mon to Wed.

Attended my induction course (2-days event) == orientation course on Thur. I'm almost 6mth old in the company but due to crash in schedule, i only managed to attend this last induction before confirmation on Thur.

Skipped Fri induction to attend my Division Interaction Day == Team Building Day.

Went to Fort Canning at-sunrise cooking sch.

Toured the Spice Garden, learn basic table setting, folding of napkins and most importantly cook my own lunch. 3 courses lunch!

I folded 1.. nice??? Candle.. Oriental Hotel 2 Fold Fans.. Elf Shoe.

Maybe when i am out of job, i can considered jumping into F & B industry.

lastly, vietnam spring roll..

Meet up with an old frenz for movie and dinner.

Watched Le Grand Chef in Korean. quite a gd plot.. touching too coz i cried.. at the COW part.. haiz..

See the show made me so tempted to eat Korean Food.. who wan? i wan go Togi..

As usual, dinner at town and followed with coffee at starbuck. Got an extra cup of coffee FOC by the staff there due to wrong order..

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Saturday.. went to JB with frenz.. was brought to Pelangi.. honestly speaking other then city square in JB.. i never been to other departmental stores there before.. so whatever place choosen will be okie with me.

Really spend the day eating.. expensive Japanese Food.. Belly portion of Sashimi which is very exp in Spore but due to the exchange rate.. its affordable eating there.

and most importantly don't forget, my desert - Secret Recipe Cakes.. was a bit disappointed this time round as the Tiramisu cake was So So.. and quite sweet to me personally.

Dun be surprised but i really left JB empty handed except for a full stomach, a packet of walnut and this...

MY QOO Drink

~to all those frenz who dunno, i have a big crush for this cute toy since poly time.. image the big big toy sleeping beside me everynite~

Shocking to find it at cold storage there.. saw it while queuing at the counter and without thinking, grabbed it and pay for it. its not really cheap.. RM3.99, but who care, since i dun have this design before.

In summary, JB is a good place for eating, KTV, movie and shopping at supermarket. The fashion trend there is slower then Spore so better be careful when buying thing there.. you might be out of trend.

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Spend sunday with a movie date with my frenz. The 6 of us with unique, cute, special nick.

~Hanzi, Chew zi ~

~Nai pa, Nai ma ~

~Pwee Pwee, Fat Fat ~

Watched Alien vs Predator 2.. due to the 3 gals (including me) crazy spending, we missed 5min of the show as we were running frm Far East to Cine.

who can tell me what i missed??

Dinner was at NYDC wheelock.. and honestly speaking the quality, quantity of NYDC decreased tremendously esp to a previously big Fan of NYDC like me.. think i will really consider consider for very long before i stepped into there again.

so Disappointing!!

Labels: Career, The Farm

posted by Ah Jean at 1/14/2008 10:48:00 AM

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Is He Mr Right??

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posted by Ah Jean at 1/08/2008 05:43:00 PM

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Its Year 2008

really have a very enjoyable end 2007. Thanks to my dearest Fat Fat and Hanzi who managed to talk me through my crisis...
so what now, year 2008.. what my resolution?

Cut down on my spending.. cant shop so frequently le
~~Cut down on desert intake~~, so won't become Pwee Pwee..(realise is impossible coz i luv my tiramisu so much)
Keep myself happy, don't always anyhow think and think too much

What i want to achieve in 2008?

Really feel like going for a tour.. My first destination, Hongkong although i been there before few years back with my parents..

2nd destination, Taiwan.. heard wonders about that place..

Anyway the planned iternary is: (hope can fulfil it)

Mar 08 - HK, Oct 08 - Taiwan

So so, i must really really save very much this year.. plus i need to pay for my poly cum uni sch fee le, and also dun forget 2008 income tax..

posted by Ah Jean at 1/08/2008 05:24:00 PM

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My Office Cubicle

My cubicle in NTU. just got a new hanging shelf.. then suddenly my table seem very very empty.

What to put huh?? heheh